Saying Yes to Losing Everything
Michael starts the day before in "desperate futility and hopelessness." The next morning he records a private audio for himself — the one that opens this episode. The practice he's found: to poverty, to lack, to the complete loss of everything that matters, he says "Yes. Thank you. May I have some more." Not to get anywhere. The wanting itself — to win the lottery, to sell the house — is the push creating resistance in the flow of creation. So he stops pushing.
From there it cracks open. All the fear and struggle, he realizes, is "the egoic consciousness crying for help." He's shown the light codes generating his fear of the past, the future, and the now — and that he's the one creating every bit of it, separation included. "See and you'll be free." The one thing that held him through the hopelessness was the poster in their office: trust the process. "What else is there? Trust the mind? Come on."
Audree listened to the recording thinking it was "an apology he can't say to me." Then she turns on the work itself: why is this even a podcast? "100% is the energetic transmission. Everything else is just for entertainment." The podcast inspires the journey; it isn't the journey. And the lie people fall for is "just surrender, just let go, just be in the flow" — you can't think your way to surrender. The mind is the problem. You need the mechanics.
Then the harder part. The saints in the sacred forest, the Buddha under the tree — they gave up, and a light being finished the job. That grace is gone; it ended with the deviation. "One day it just happens" is no longer how it works. All that's left is doing the work yourself.
They prove it live. They'd fought the night before — Audree triggered, trying to ask a question; Michael deciding she was triggered and shutting down; Audree going "berserk." Relationship, she says, is "two egos in the same room reacting," and it's for waking up. The question she'd been trying to ask the whole time? Whether they still have homeowners insurance. "See how easy that is?"
[Recorded June 16. The date-ordered sequence is E46 → E36 → E47 → E37 → E48.]
00:00 Beyond Being Special
01:20 Yes to Everything
03:49 Ego Crying for Help
05:06 Light Codes Past Future
07:13 No Separation Now
09:57 Trust the Process
11:44 Living Room Debrief
14:29 Surrender Needs Mechanics
17:00 Long Path of Practice
24:42 Removing Misperceptions
26:03 Resistance Falls Away
27:26 Gratitude As Creation
27:44 Podcast Is Not Path
30:32 Sacred Forest Story
35:23 Buddha Surrender Myth
37:58 Beyond Mindfulness Mechanics
39:34 Why Apologies Mislead
43:49 Fight Trigger Breakdown
51:29 Threat Mindset Projection
54:30 E2 Mantra Closing
From there it cracks open. All the fear and struggle, he realizes, is "the egoic consciousness crying for help." He's shown the light codes generating his fear of the past, the future, and the now — and that he's the one creating every bit of it, separation included. "See and you'll be free." The one thing that held him through the hopelessness was the poster in their office: trust the process. "What else is there? Trust the mind? Come on."
Audree listened to the recording thinking it was "an apology he can't say to me." Then she turns on the work itself: why is this even a podcast? "100% is the energetic transmission. Everything else is just for entertainment." The podcast inspires the journey; it isn't the journey. And the lie people fall for is "just surrender, just let go, just be in the flow" — you can't think your way to surrender. The mind is the problem. You need the mechanics.
Then the harder part. The saints in the sacred forest, the Buddha under the tree — they gave up, and a light being finished the job. That grace is gone; it ended with the deviation. "One day it just happens" is no longer how it works. All that's left is doing the work yourself.
They prove it live. They'd fought the night before — Audree triggered, trying to ask a question; Michael deciding she was triggered and shutting down; Audree going "berserk." Relationship, she says, is "two egos in the same room reacting," and it's for waking up. The question she'd been trying to ask the whole time? Whether they still have homeowners insurance. "See how easy that is?"
[Recorded June 16. The date-ordered sequence is E46 → E36 → E47 → E37 → E48.]
00:00 Beyond Being Special
01:20 Yes to Everything
03:49 Ego Crying for Help
05:06 Light Codes Past Future
07:13 No Separation Now
09:57 Trust the Process
11:44 Living Room Debrief
14:29 Surrender Needs Mechanics
17:00 Long Path of Practice
24:42 Removing Misperceptions
26:03 Resistance Falls Away
27:26 Gratitude As Creation
27:44 Podcast Is Not Path
30:32 Sacred Forest Story
35:23 Buddha Surrender Myth
37:58 Beyond Mindfulness Mechanics
39:34 Why Apologies Mislead
43:49 Fight Trigger Breakdown
51:29 Threat Mindset Projection
54:30 E2 Mantra Closing
Creators and Guests
Host
Audree Tara Sahota
I was born with mystical gifts I learned to hide from a world that wasn't ready, the weird kid teaching Samadhi at slumber parties while trying to make sense of being different. Almost a decade in formal healing training, a graduate of the Barbara Brennan Collage of Healing. Five years on a Chicago medical team, healing what Western medicine couldn't touch. In 2009 I received Evolutionary Energetics, yet discovering it and embodying it are completely different. I've done the messy work: dissolved my ego, healed my deepest patterns, trusted guidance I couldn't see when everything rational screamed not to. I'm not a guru with all the answers. I'm a real person who happened to be born remembering cosmic truth, walked the uncomfortable path of living it, and learned how to make it practical.
Host
Michael K Sahota
Raised with logic and science, I started as the ultimate skeptic. In my AI PhD program, I discovered that human vision and cognition is controlled hallucination; we literally make up reality. After years in software architecture and management roles leading organizational transformations, the pattern became clear: the consciousness of the leader creates culture, culture creates outcomes. I hit the truth: I was the limiting factor in every change initiative. Meeting Audree transformed everything as our opposite approaches unlocked something extraordinary. Through 100+ leadership trainings, we didn't create this work, we received it, download by download, in an unfolding evolutionary process. I've done the messy work: learned to trust direct experience over logic, followed guidance that made no rational sense. I'm not a guru with all the answers. My passion is the mechanics of creation. I'm the bridge between worlds, translating cosmic downloads into step-by-step practical tools.
