You Are the Donkey, Not the Rider
You are the donkey. The egoic consciousness is the rider, with carrot and stick, telling you what to think, what to feel, what to want. You go along with it, convinced these are your thoughts.
Audree opens with the deeper question: have you ever actually listened to the dialogue in your head? She shares her own experience of hearing thoughts in foreign languages while traveling, of seeing thoughts during her India awakening as white light floating into people's heads. Eastern philosophy: your thoughts are not your thoughts.
Then the ice cream illustration. The same mind that tells you to eat it is the one that punishes you afterward. Which voice is you? Research shows the more you try to stop beating yourself up, the more you beat yourself up.
The central trick gets named directly. The ego lets you think you're in control. Because you think it's preposterous that you can't be in control, that's how you're controlled. Every achievement, every life goal becomes a consumption mechanism keeping the loop alive. This is what living in The Deviation means.
Michael and Audree share something personal too: they're letting go of their forever home, a hundred-year-old former monastery they thought they'd build their lives around. Walking the talk in real time.
00:00 Meet Your Inner Dialogue
00:51 Why Meditation Feels Hard
02:13 Are Thoughts Really Yours
05:32 Psychic Sensitivity Story
13:20 Ice Cream Mind Trap
16:31 Ego Control Illusion
19:39 Control Addiction Everywhere
23:07 Safety And Surrender
26:28 Consumption And Achievement Loop
29:00 Donkey And Rider Metaphor
31:05 Mind Versus Reality
31:46 Guidance And The Maze
32:56 Purity In Channeling
36:28 Source Consciousness Paradox
38:09 Seeing Control Patterns
40:06 Using Ego To Heal Ego
42:18 Unconditional Love Practice
44:55 Cycles Of Evolution
46:37 Surrender And Letting Flow
49:38 Control Creates Resistance
51:31 Letting Go Of The Mansion
57:18 Responsibility And Awareness
58:17 Mantra Transmission Close
Creators and Guests
Host
Audree Tara Sahota
I was born with mystical gifts I learned to hide from a world that wasn't ready, the weird kid teaching Samadhi at slumber parties while trying to make sense of being different. Almost a decade in formal healing training, a graduate of the Barbara Brennan Collage of Healing. Five years on a Chicago medical team, healing what Western medicine couldn't touch. In 2009 I received Evolutionary Energetics, yet discovering it and embodying it are completely different. I've done the messy work: dissolved my ego, healed my deepest patterns, trusted guidance I couldn't see when everything rational screamed not to. I'm not a guru with all the answers. I'm a real person who happened to be born remembering cosmic truth, walked the uncomfortable path of living it, and learned how to make it practical.
Host
Michael K Sahota
Raised with logic and science, I started as the ultimate skeptic. In my AI PhD program, I discovered that human vision and cognition is controlled hallucination; we literally make up reality. After years in software architecture and management roles leading organizational transformations, the pattern became clear: the consciousness of the leader creates culture, culture creates outcomes. I hit the truth: I was the limiting factor in every change initiative. Meeting Audree transformed everything as our opposite approaches unlocked something extraordinary. Through 100+ leadership trainings, we didn't create this work, we received it, download by download, in an unfolding evolutionary process. I've done the messy work: learned to trust direct experience over logic, followed guidance that made no rational sense. I'm not a guru with all the answers. My passion is the mechanics of creation. I'm the bridge between worlds, translating cosmic downloads into step-by-step practical tools.
