B Evolutionary: The Podcast

Michael: So here we are.

We're on our, um, new corded microphones,
so we don't have the wireless systems

burning a hole in Audrey Tara's field.

And the new microphones, for fun
factor, are called DD microphones.

And, uh, I thought, you
know, how appropriate is it?

It's not that, you know,
Audrey and I are DDs.

Um, it's that we all are.

You know, we all are source consciousness
incarnate in the material world.

We all are, you know, born
with a brain structure that can

harness all the Siddhi powers.

It's actually there in the, the brain.

It just needs to get turned on.

And so, uh, so it's actually
a very fitting name.

Anyway, so that's the, um, the update
on technology, and hopefully you're

enjoying this, uh, audio experience.

So w- we're gonna talk about something--
Oh, yeah, I ha- I-- So this is why we,

we're s- we started the podcast, is I was,
um, you know, getting my shower downloads

as usual, and I realized that it's not
just about a balance between the masculine

aspect of our being and the feminine
aspect of our being, which we've spoken

about previously, uh, in other episodes.

And what I realized is that
we need inner balance first.

Like, you know, the, you know, the,
you know, we go outside or find balance

outside when there's inner balance and,
and there's actually an inner balancing

within the feminine aspect of our being
itself, with itself, and the masculine

aspect of our being with itself.

So what does that mean?

Well, if we think about the feminine...

Oh, and the other thing is, I might sound
a bit weird today because, um, there was

a huge release yesterday or purification
process that involved a lot of, um, a

lot of- Screaming ... screaming, yeah.

Um, which isn't usual for our thing,
but apparently that's what was needed.

So, um, so I might sound a bit,
a bit strange today, like I got

a cold or something, but it's
actually just the damage to my vocal

cords hasn't really recovered yet.

So, um, or my voice may
be changing permanently.

I don't know.

Anything's possible, so
I'll try to figure it out.

Okay, so on to the balancing internally.

So w-

Audree: There's also a lot of pollen
in the air 'cause it's springtime.

Michael: Yeah.

' Audree: Cause I notice my, my nose
is totally stuffy and running.

I'm about to sneeze and ask for Kleenex.

Michael: Yeah, for me, the pollen content
for what's going on is less than 10%.

Oh.

Yeah.

All right, so, hmm.

So what does it mean for
balance internally within the

feminine aspect of our being?

It means the aspect of your being that
is giving, nurturing, receiving, that it

ne- itself needs to receive from itself.

See, so it's about the part of you
that's- I mean, we all wanna receive,

we all wanna have things, right?

But what, what's b- in part
blocking us is the internal-

Audree: In part, all of
it is our internal state

Michael: Yeah, it's all internal.

So, so what I'm saying is this,
this aspect of our being needs to

be itself comfortable receiving.

I mean, it, you know, it's kind
of obvious when we say it that.

And, you know, when we're not fully
comfortable internally receiving

from our own being, how can we b-
be comfortable receiving from the

external world, or receiving from
the, the masculine aspect of creation?

I mean, it, you know, when we
s- when I say it like this, it's

like, oh my gosh, it's so obvious.

Like, how come we never saw this before?

Audree: I was in a program where, um,

they would say, "Well, you know,
not how much can you receive, but

how long are you open to receiving?"

They didn't say it quite like that.

Um, it was a lot sexier way to
say it, but I can't remember.

Michael: Oh, was it, uh, how much
good can you receive or something?

How much good can you
take in or, how much-

Audree: Yeah, it wa- I mean,
but it was the same thing.

It was like, is it three hours?

Is it three days?

Is it three weeks?

Is it three months?

Is it three years?

Like, h- like, how long can you
fully take in receiving, receiving,

receiving before you crash it?

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: Oh, now I have to sneeze.

Can you pause it?

Michael: Um, maybe.

Audree: Never mind.

Michael: All right.

Mistakes were made.

Can

Audree: you throw me some Kleenex?

Michael: All right.

Audree: I'm gonna mute my mic.

I'm not sure how to do ... Oh, shoot.

I'm so sorry.

I'm ... I don't know

Michael: You can't get it wrong, Audrey.

The worst thing you can do is

Audree: turn it off.

No, I'm like, I, like,
was brushing up against

Oh, that microphone
doesn't matter anymore.

No.

Okay.

Michael: Am I muted?

Yeah, you're muted.

All right.

Okay, hold on.

Hold please.

This is the real slice of
life aspect of the podcast.

All right.

So while Audrey's blowing her nose,
I'll go on talking about the masculine.

So then there's the, the masculine
aspect of our being- That's

' Speaker 3: cause we're
real people doing real

Michael: things All right.

All right, crazy pants.

All right.

All right.

So, so the masculine aspect of our being
is the one that's creating structure,

it's the one that's exercising power.

It's the one that's creating the
shape of our life and active in

the world, moving things forward.

Audree: Am I back on?

Michael: Uh, yeah.

And so when we look at that, it's like,
well, how aspe- how, how good is that

aspect of our being receiving structure?

Audree: Not good, 'cause
that's a judgment.

Michael: Yeah.

How open.

So how, how open ... Oh,
that's why you're here, Audrey.

Mm-hmm.

Audree: One

Michael: of the many reasons.

How open are you- Is that aspect
to receiving the structure,

to receiving the power, to...

And so it's like, and then so what comes
up is everything, everything, everything

we have in our judgments about power,
in our judgments about authority, in

our judgments about, um, control through
wealth or status or whatever it is, right?

And all of that comes up.

So the thing is, and this is what we
see, is that as a leader, this is coming

back, tying this back to organizations,
as a leader, until you're comfortable

working in a hierarchy yourself, how
can you be an effective leader, right?

If you're upset about your boss
telling you what to do, how can you

be an effective, uh, boss and give
direction in a, in a clean way?

You know, of course, using, you
know, what we talk about as green

list and co-creative and, and so on.

But how can you find that balance of
how to engage with people and pull

them in for their perspective, and at
the same time provide a container that

supports the, the, the, the, the things
that need to get done to get done?

Audree: It's funny because it,
it goes even deeper than that.

Michael: Oh.

Audree: Um, l- like looking at teams
and people working on teams and the

frustration- ... of the hierarchy
within the organization, the leadership

within the organization, and, you
know, I, I say to the students, "Well,

if you're frustrated with what's
going on with the organization, how

can you perform, perform your tasks?

How can you have high performance?"

Because you're, you're frustrated, you're
frustrated with, with the way things are

going or how things are, are done here.

And then you're no longer productive.

It kind of takes you out.

And it goes even deeper than that
because fundamentally, humans across

the board are terrified of authority.

It's built into our, like our, our-

Michael: Destructive parenting system.

Audree: Yeah.

D- it's not, I don't wanna say
it's the parents- Oppressive school

system ... but it's, it's the per-

Michael: It's all of

Audree: it ... it's the oppressive
society that we live in.

You know, if you are driving in a
car and you're going the speed limit,

you're following all the rules,
but you pass a police officer, your

fight or flight response kicks in.

Your nervous system activates because-
... you're, you're in fear automatically.

Because, I mean, that's how you
could tell, we all have this

sense of we've been trained

to be afraid of authority because
we have been grown, we've been-

raised in a, an oppressive society.

So it's just automatic in our system.

And so these are the things- The

Michael: automatic conditioning
that we're working through

Audree: it's automatic conditioning Yes.

Yes.

So these are the things that are
deeply rooted into the subconscious

that we're n- unaware of.

Michael: Right, which is the purification.

Audree: Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

Michael: It's the mission.

Audree: It's

Michael: the mission.

The mission profile.

Audree: Yes.

Michael: Can you feel
comfortable in the world?

Audree: Right.

And then the great thing about it is
if you look outside of yourself and

see something, if you look inside of
yourself and check, do I have that?

Why is that there?

You know, why am I seeking control?

Why am I seeking manipulation?

You know, why, why couldn't
I see it up until now?

Michael: Well, you wanna
hear the, the fun fact?

Audree: Mm-hmm.

Michael: Um, everyone's a control junkie.

Audree: Mm-hmm.

Michael: Everyone is desperately
trying to control their life.

Audree: You know why?

It's not a bad thing.

We're tr- trying to survive, honey.

It's a built-in survival mechanism.

Michael: I'm saying something different.

Audree: I don't think so, but go ahead.

Michael: What if it were true?

Audree: What if?

I'm open to unlearning.

Michael: So,

so I'm pointing to something deeper.

Making choices to flow with the
circumstances we're in so that we survive

does not involve, does not need to involve
trying to control everything around

us and control all the circumstances.

Audree: You said something very profound.

Michael: That's why I said to-

Audree: Do, do you know what you said?

Michael: I'd like to
hear your perspective.

Audree: Okay.

For survival.

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: The minute you
have fear of survival,

you know, the shit storm
commences- ... so to speak.

Michael: Right.

So this is where I'm saying
that the, the, the, the survival

fear ... So, survival fear is what
leads to the trying to control-

Audree: Mm-hmm

... Michael: which is the how we actually
get in the way of the flow of life-

Audree: Yes

... Michael: and where we're not surrendering.

Mm-hmm.

Right?

So that's why we say, you know, everything
you want to achieve, every, every, you

know, everything that's happening to you
that you're resisting, like being sick or

whatever, that's your trying to control-

Audree: Yes

Michael: your life
rather than let it flow.

Audree: Mm-hmm.

Michael: Let it flow.

Let, I mean, that's what the, that's what
this, um- This nursery rhyme is, right?

Audree: Row, row, row your boat.

Michael: Row, row, row your
boat, not anybody else's, your

boat gently down the stream.

So it's saying, like, you,
you go down the stream.

You don't try to go upstream.

You don't try to fight the current.

You go with the flow of
life and you go gently.

Audree: Mm.

Michael: So you take your own journey
of life, you gently move in the flow

of creation, and it has, you know, the
deepest teaching of, you know, every

spiritual tradition or many spiritual
traditions, life is but a dream, right?

And so it's all there in the
nursery rhyme, the prescription.

So we're saying, don't worry about
the life is but a dream part.

That's very advanced.

So just focus on the other part of
like, well, where am I not focusing

on my own boat, rowing my own boat?

Where am I not going downstream,
and where am I not going gently?

And if you do those three things and
you have awareness of those three

things, that's almost the whole
program of evolution right there.

Audree: So Michael- ... when you say those
things, but I have a child that's bipolar,

that is on, on drugs and totally fucking
up their life, and they're 16, let's say.

Mm.

So they're, uh, you know, it's still
under my control as a parent because

they're not 18 yet, and I'm very
worried and, and I don't know what to

do, and you're saying just to flow.

Michael: Well, so let, let's just, let's
just look at the, the mechanics here.

Like, if...

So when we stop and pause and look
at the person in that situation-

Mm-hmm ... what's going on in
their nervous system, their fight

or flight system's going haywire.

Their, they have a
sense of, of loss- Wait,

Audree: the child or the parent?

Michael: No, I'm just
talking about the parent.

Okay.

We're talking about the, we're talking
about the parent here, not the child.

Got it.

Only the parent.

The, so we're only talking
about the parent here.

You gotta solve your inner world,
then you can solve the outer world,

so that's kind of like a problem
step decomposition number one.

Mm-hmm.

Look at your own situation, not at the
external situation you're trying to solve.

Right.

If you're trying to solve the external
situation from your current state of

functioning, it's gonna be a mess.

So you're saying- No problem

Audree: can be saved from

Michael: the

Audree: same-

Michael: Yeah ... level of consciousness-
So you're the problem- ... that

Audree: created

Michael: it ... you're the problem or
you're the solution, or your ability to

find a problem for your external situation
is limited by your internal situation.

Mm-hmm.

So that's step one.

Look inward.

Step two, look at really what's
going on with your nervous system,

your fight or flight, your fear.

Like, so probably what's going on
is, like, an out of control, whole

bunch of set of fears, overwhelm-
You can't control- ... stress ... the

situation- Yeah, so basically,

Audree: your- ... you
don't know what to do,

Michael: da, da, da, da, da

yeah, your, so your, so just
physiologically, your body chemistry-

Mm ... is a factory that's running
overtime- Messing up your whole system

so you can't function, starving your
frontal cortex of the blood supply

it needs to actually reason and think
about the situation any meaningful way.

There, you're, there's filled with
emotional charges about the situation

that, that you haven't worked through.

And so like when we're looking at that
situation, it's like, well, you know,

really the first step is you gotta
put the oxygen mask on yourself first.

Like your first step is to get
yourself into a resource state, right?

So this is where like the nervous
system reset, to stabilize the nervous

system, to get more blood supply to
the frontal cortex, to settle things

down, the grounding meditation, to
stabilize your being with all the

energetic shifts happening on the
planet right now so you're stable.

Using, um, this is where we start,
you start to, you know, run the

30-day experiment from level one
and see how much your ability to

be non-reactive, to be present
with the situation, it will change.

You'll be able to be more present, and
without using the advanced tools of

clearing, you'll be functioning better.

And then going on to level two, then
that's where you start to work to address

the actual root causes, where you start to
actually work through those disturbances

that are repeated and recurring in your
field that are happening to you every day.

You start working through them so that
they no longer have the grip on you.

And then, um, you know, of course
with E2, your whole energy field's

gonna start getting cleared out,
and everything, your whole kind of

stabilization process is just gonna
blossom in an extraordinary way.

And then you realize that everything you
thought was going on with you in your

life is not what's actually happening,
and that you realize that you actually

have more power in the situation.

And as you go on this journey, what's
gonna happen is your ability to see

what's happening with this, this child of
yours, right, your ability to be present

with them, your ability to just sit with
them and be calm is going to increase.

And that alone will suddenly change their
ability to function in the world, because

now you're a stable parent, non-reactive
or low reactivity to their drama.

Their drama can, can stabilize through
your being because you're stable and calm.

And then from there, together you can
solve the very practical real world

things that you need to solve for.

So I'm not saying this is perfect.

I'm not saying I've ever
been in this situation.

I'm just saying, speaking to the actual
mechanics of what we've seen with

people using this work and how this
works at a mechanics of creation level-

I can say I've been, I've been in-

that are based on physiology,
psychology, biology, all of these things.

Audree: And Michael, you have been
in this situation with your kids.

Not to that level of, of, um, crisis.

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: And the same thing
Sometimes it took two years

Michael: Everybody who has teenagers
has been in this, this place.

Audree: You know,

Michael: I-

Audree: I, I'll never forget, I think it
was, like, third grade, and my daughter

was coming home from school and angry.

Like, so a- well, there was
a lot of anger in our house.

And I mean, it would be to the point
where I would have to, like, hold

her, her arms, but I was angry.

I, like, I swear to God I wanted
to beat the shit out of her.

Mm.

Like, that's, like, how much the,
the trigger and the charges is...

It was like the whole room
was just filled with violence.

I, and, and it was happening.

It, it started happening, and
then it was, like, five days.

And, and I remember just
being in meditation, being

like, "What am I gonna do?"

Like, "I gotta go pick her up from school.

What am I gonna do?

This is, like, happening,
happening, happening."

It might've been for a couple weeks,
actually, but I think it was, like, five

days where I wasn't getting the answer.

And this is before our work, obviously.

And, um, and so I was just noticing what
was going on, and what I was noticing

was that she was angry, and then it felt
like the anger, she couldn't contain

the anger in herself, and so she was
throwing the anger out, and it was

hitting me, and then I was consuming
the anger and con- then consumed by it.

And so I don't know if I was guided.

I, I, I mean, at this point I'm pretty
sure I was just guided into just

listening very, very closely to what
was happening and feeling into it.

And then I realized, if
I don't get triggered,

at least I don't get triggered, and I
won't, I won't be in, in the situation

where I felt out of control and I felt
like I wanted, I wanted to hurt her.

Like, this was just, like, you know...

And I, I remember just holding her
arms and just be- and, and, like,

screaming at her almost, like, "Stop it!"

Like, you know, like I didn't
know what to do anymore.

And, um, and I think that that was when
I was just like, "Whoa, there's, like,

s- there's, like, stuff going on here."

So I was like, "Okay, I'm gonna try
this," and she came home from school.

I picked her up, and she was,
like, super, super, super angry.

And I was just, like, breathing through
it, and this is before I had Get Clear,

but I was just breathing through it.

I was watching myself and every...

I could almost, like, feel the
anger hitting me and not, and, and

deflecting it, like, not allowing
it to enter into my system.

And, like, literally in, within
five minutes she stopped.

She just stopped being angry.

It had nowhere to go.

The anger had nowhere to go.

I think I wrote about this
in, in Emotional Science.

Did I?

Maybe.

I don't know.

But that was when I realized that anger
like that, the, the energy when it doesn't

have anywhere to go, no longer has power.

If it doesn't have power over
you, then it, it shuts down.

It can't, it can't reach you.

It has nowhere to go, and that's,
like, the perfect time to allow the

other person to, to settle down.

You know what it turned
out with my daughter?

She needed food.

I, like, I, I just, I had no idea.

She needed food right after school because
it was so intense for her to be at school.

She also needed glasses.

We didn't know.

She couldn't...

She was having a hard time seeing,
and it's really weird 'cause

she doesn't wear glasses now.

But she needed glasses for, like, a year.

It was...

You know, I don't know.

There was something going on with
her system that she, her eyes or

something, she needed glasses.

So it was, like, glasses and protein.

She needed protein.

Sh- I don't know if she wasn't
getting it at lunch or, like...

Yeah.

Mm.

But the problem couldn't be solved-
... until the anger was and her reaction

was gone, my reaction was gone.

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: You wanna go back to the regular
scheduled program, which was talking

about the masculine and feminine?

How did we get on this subject?

Michael: The way we always do.

Audree: Yeah.

Michael: One thing leads to another.

Audree: Maybe somebody needs
to hear this right now.

Michael: Hmm.

Audree: You know, any situation that's
happening in your life, any situation-

Michael: Every situation

Audree: every situation, you can ask
yourself the greatest question ever.

I got it from Michael.

What if it were true that
you're creating the reality?

And it's a very difficult one
to take in Take ownership of.

And you don't have to
take ownership of it.

You could just stop for a moment and look
at an external situation and just say,

"What if it were true I'm creating this?"

And then go inside and start to, to find
the places where it feels uncomfortable.

Michael: Well, that's
the advanced question.

People can start with the easier question,
which is, why does this disturb me?

And, and where is this disturbing me?

Audree: Well, I mean, soci- you know,
the, it's supposed to disturb you.

Michael: Well, I, I, I understand that.

Audree: You know what I mean,
then they go there, you know?

So it's, it's this kind of like-

Michael: Well, no, well, they,
they can go to self-victimization,

but that's a whole other layer.

But that's the e- that's the
easier starting move anyway.

So, so yeah.

So, so let's come back
to the original topic.

Audree: Mm-hmm.

Michael: I, I don't know
how to tie this back in.

Maybe you've got some ideas.

Audree: You don't need to.

Just go back.

Michael: Well, I said
everything I wanted to say.

Audree: Oh,

Michael: just repeat.

So, so I'll just go back to, to
just come back to the, the central

thesis is that, again, we're
the problem, we're the solution.

It's actually going deeper within
us and saying, like, that aspect

of us ... Actually, this is
a fractal of the whole story.

That aspect of us that holds the, the
masculine aspect, that aspect of us

that holds the feminine aspect, that
part of ourself needs to be whole

and complete to function in the whole
system as the masculine and the feminine

aspects of our being coming together.

Audree: Right.

It's not about- So it's a fractal
... 'cause you started this, it's not, you

had this deeper realization, it's not
just about balancing the masculine and

the feminine- ... s- to end the conflict.

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: It was the internal conflict
within the feminine aspect of the

being, the internal conflict in,
within the masculine aspect of

being, those need to heal first-

Michael: Right.

Well, see, s-

... Audree: before you can balance the, the,
the conflict between the masculine and the

Michael: feminine.

Right.

Where- whereas previously I had a
concept of the masculine was out

of balance and the feminine was out
of balance, but that was in terms

of the context of the relationship-
Mm-hmm ... and the flowing with creation.

Yeah.

And this is more about
an internal perspective-

Audree: Yes

... Michael: of-

Audree: It's a deeper understanding

... Michael: it's a balance
within its own self-

Audree: Yes

... Michael: within its own structures.

Audree: It's fractals upon fractals upon

Michael: fractals.

Yeah.

So that, that's, that's the, um ... So
that's how it ties in, because

that's actually a fractal of the
parent with the, the child or, you

know, that is the situation, right?

We can't bring the, the external, what
is external to that aspect of myself

that's masculine or the feminine,
with the external balance until the,

the, the internal balance is there.

Right.

Or to the extent, yeah, that

Audree: it's there.

And it's about, and then we
start talking about control.

Michael: Right.

Well, so, so, so I'm gonna go on to
another topic here, which is really

very prominent right now in, in my
evolutionary journey, which is, uh, uh, a

teaching that came through the, uh, she-
Channeling session where, um, you know,

they're, they're very good at pointing
things out that I'm not aware of, so.

Audree: That's their job.

Michael: Yeah.

That is one of their jobs is, or as
their guides as well as energetic

upgrades and various other things.

So,

what it is is that surrender is not what
m- the ego or consciousness thinks it is.

And what this is, is it ties
in with the precision of life

and the precision of all creation and what
it means to flow gently down the stream.

Like, what does that even mean?

And so what my flavor of ego or
consciousness, which I think is probably

many people have this misperception,
is that surrender means willy-nilly

letting go of control, and it's like
there's n- and, you know, like a...

You know, we're just, we're just
not involved anymore, and the

universe is gonna decide and so on.

But, but here's the deal.

When you realize you are source
consciousness, you are the universe.

Like, there's no...

You're the one deciding.

Like, there is no some external
thing doing this to you.

So then it kinda leads in these
deeper layers of, of, of navigating

the mechanics of creation.

Well, okay.

Well, well, what does that mean
for me then very practically?

What it means is that, and this is kind of
where I got to this morning, I guess this

is another shower, shower moment, is that

you have created for yourself a specific
flow and trajectory of life, and this

is what's described through human
design and life purpose and so on.

You've described a specific set of life.

We can talk about it through
the human des- design le- lens.

We can also talk it through, through
your, your purification lens, which

is the core of our work, is there's
a specific set of lessons that you've

decided you need to learn, and that's
what you're here to experience, and

that's what you're here to move through.

And I think that she gave us the example
that everyone here is to work through

self-love and all the different fractals
and variations of that experience.

And so it's kinda like there's a...

If you're at a restaurant, there's
a set menu of dishes coming to you,

and let's say they bring you a dish,
let's say it's asparagus, and you don't

like asparagus, and you send it back.

You know what they're
gonna bring you again?

Asparagus.

And they're gonna keep on bringing
you asparagus until you realize the

asparagus is actually delicious, and
you eat the asparagus, and then you

move on to the next, next, next thing.

And so there's a flow of life that's
sitting there waiting for you, and,

and you're just gonna keep on stuck at
the current stage of the dinner program

forever until you actually realize
that it's not what you think it is.

And when that happens, and
you get the lesson, then you

move on to the next course.

And so there's a perfection in
all of creation that is the flow

of life, that is your unique-
Experience that you signed up for.

You created it, you just don't remember
that, otherwise that would, you know,

ruin the whole, the whole show, right?

The whole experience of being alive
and experiencing if you already knew

what the, the, the, you know, how the,
how the whole storyline goes, right?

So, so that's what's happening.

There's, so this is a perfection to
all of creation that the, the ... And

so what we're doing as the ego
consciousness, we're just resisting this.

All the ego consciousness is doing is 100%
resistance to your perfect flow of life.

And so when-

Audree: Your life experience

... Michael: right.

So surrender is not a willy-nilly
surrender to something random.

It's a surrender to the precise
life experience that you chose

for yourself, and the lessons
that you gain through that.

Audree: Why are you

Michael: yelling that?

I'm, I'm not yelling.

I'm feeling this profound
sense of clarity.

Yeah.

Of like-

Audree: Okay

... Michael: this is, this is it.

This is it.

Audree: What did they say about surrender?

Source is you ending

Michael: the er.

The er.

Surrender, ending the er, right?

So, so basically the ego consciousness
is the er saying, "No, I don't want

this experience," even though it's the
perfect experience for you right now.

So, so it all came full circle.

So what it means is that it's not that
surrender means something willy-nilly.

It's actually surrendering to the most
perfect thing in creation possible,

and when we do that and we're open
to receiving the learning, the gift,

the, the transformation, the discovery
that's there, everything unfolds.

And everything is there for
you, all the resources, all the

knowledge, all the teachings,
everything, all the capabilities.

Everything is sitting there
waiting for you until you're a yes.

And this is not a concept.

This is a purification journey,
so that when you experience

everything going on with you

Audree: I'm having a profound moment.

Michael: But you see the perfection in it.

Audree: Since we moved into
this house, I've had an er.

Michael: I noticed.

Audree: Went, me crying for two weeks
when we first moved in, and hating it

I'm sorry

Michael: Audra, I keep
on saying you're perfect.

This is what I'm trying to explain to you.

Audree: I know, and I'm saying I'm sorry
that it's-- I've, I've been in such

a conflicted place about this house.

Speaker 3: Mm.

Audree: You guys, this house
is actually so beautiful.

It's like, um,

thinking of the Prince
song, When Doves Cry.

How can we scream at each other?

This is what it sounds
like when doves cry.

How can you just leave me standing
alone in a world that's so cold?

It's like something about his mother
never being satisfied or something.

Michael: I never understood that song.

Audree: Ugh.

It's one of my favorite songs.

Michael: I, I know it is.

Like this is one of the paradoxes of life.

Audree: And Government Mule has a
version of When Doves Cry and Broken.

Oh my God, that's like, oh, that's me.

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: I was such a difficult
child 'cause I was like, "Why

don't I live in a palace?

I don't understand."

Like, "What do-- Well, like what is this?"

Michael: We're the servants.

" Audree: Why are we poor?"

Like, "I don't understand."

Oh my God.

I think I was just creating

the push away-

Speaker 3: Mm-hmm

... Audree: so I didn't have to receive.

But even now, I'm sitting here, I'm just
reflecting on what you're, what you're

saying and I'm like, oh, like I've-- I
haven't surrendered to this h- home ever.

I haven't ended the er.

And I'm thinking about like I'm
just sitting here going like I'm

not seeing the beauty that's here.

I'm not seeing what...

You know, we could say we
have no money, but I mean, I'm

sitting on a beautiful couch.

This is not my beautiful couch.

Staring at this gorgeous, you know,
100-year-old marble fireplace.

Like,

you know, it's like there's other
people that live in war zones, in tents.

Like, that's poverty.

Like, that's- ... extreme
crisis, you know?

Oh, so fucked up.

It's like the mind takes
you on this fucking ride.

Michael: That's the job.

Its fu- functioning is correct.

That's even part of the
perfection, is seeing the whole

deviation, ego consciousness
as part of that perfection.

It's this way because it
was designed to be this way.

It's not like something
went wrong in the universe.

It's something went right
and the deviation happened.

Audree: It had to happen.

Well, so, so here's the thing.

Most people will never know
all the information, like the

information that we have, so-

Michael: But we don't even
know all the information.

Audree: No, we don't.

But we have- Yeah, little bits and
pieces ... we have, and it took a year-

Right ... for that information to come in.

But I re- And

Michael: some of it's just, like,
crazy making, 'cause it's like, what?

Audree: But I remember when, when the
information that she gave us about the

deviation came in, and all of a sudden
explained so much with not a lot of words.

It was like this internal, intuitive
understanding, and that's when

the healing started to happen.

Michael: Oh.

Remember what you said
about the j- company?

How can you work for a
company and deliver- Mm-hmm

if you're angry at the hierarchy and
angry at what's happening in the company?

How can you heal the egoic
consciousness when you're angry

at it and you think it's wrong?

Audree: Yep.

Or

Michael: you're angry at God.

Audree: Stop.

S-

Michael: s- s- slow down.

How can you heal the egoic consciousness
that's operating and running your

life, and creating the disasters,
and the pain, and the suffering-

Audree: The damage

... Michael: when you're in judgment
of it and you're angry at it?

You're angry at your own
self for creating it.

And so this is the journey, to get to
that place to see the perfection, even

in the egoic consciousness, even in
the ego- Like- Even in the deviation

... Audree: like we're all- And

Michael: just- ... trying

Audree: to figure the way out

... Michael: and just be at peace with it.

And I'm not saying I've got this fully
solved I'm seeing I'm having these

experiences when there are aspects of my
being that are the ego consciousness or,

you know, whatever's happening, these
disturbances, and I'm just like, I'm

just opening to the perfection of it.

And here's the paradox.

When you're no longer in resistance to
it, you've ended the er in your system and

you're at total peace with it, that's the
moment when you, as source consciousness,

can change it into something different.

But the ability to create the
change is only on the other

side of fully ending the er.

So the paradox is you can't change
it when you're trying to change it.

It's kinda like that
Nanny McPhee thing, right?

You know, when, when
you, y- you know, when-

Audree: Oh.

Michael: Do you remember what it is?

Audree: Yeah.

"When you need me but
don't want me, I am here.

When you want me but
don't need me, I must go."

Michael: Yeah.

Audree: Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

Michael: Yeah, so that's
the, the paradox is that

when you stop resisting what your life
is completely, then it can change.

So when you stop resisting the dishes
coming to you at the restaurant that you

don't like, and you just get what you
need from them, get the lesson from it,

then you can choose whatever you want.

I'm getting goosebumps, like this whole-

Audree: Yeah

... Michael: my whole- It's

Audree: just very beautifully said.

Like

my work here is done.

Michael: And I think this is what the
she talked about with we've, we've

finally hit this, this, the, the
final unlock and the tipping point.

I think we talked about the tipping
point in a previous episode.

They were actually riffing
off of what we said.

I said tipping point.

Audree: Really?

Michael: Yeah.

I think that was a previous episode,
which now feels like forever

ago, like weeks or months ago,
although it was just a few days.

And so,

and so if we come back full circle
to, well, where do, where, you know,

how do I get here, it's like it's just
starting the journey, and this is the,

this is the thing is that the, the
beauty of everything, it's everything.

It's developing awareness as a capability.

It's accessing the high vibrational energy
to support the purification journey.

It's learning what the, understanding
how the mechanics of creation work.

That's what our work is about.

It's about how do you learn how
you function so that you can-

Audree: Change

... Michael: it's interesting.

You know, we say become the
captain of your ship or t- take,

take charge of your incarnation.

Well,

Audree: Mary said, "Be
the captain of your ship."

Michael: No, that's my phrase.

She was playing it back.

I've said that before.

Audree: Really?

Michael: Yeah, that was a playback.

Audree: Oh.

Michael: That's how you know people
get it, 'cause it anchors in.

So, um, so, so, you know, the funny
thing is when we say those things,

it's about, well, I wanna be in control
of my life, and that's the paradox.

The way you get to be in full,
100% control of your life is

you stop trying to control it.

Wow, what a, what a great setup.

Audree: It's almost as some supreme
intelligence created the whole thing.

Michael: Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, it's pretty extraordinary.

Pretty extraordinary.

And, and, like, you know, the
deal is here, like, I'm, I'm still

using our tools, like, all of them.

Like, like, it's not like they go away.

It's like, you know, it's just- I

Audree: mean, that's
the funny story, though.

Like, I s- I actually go to our website,
and I go to the free experience, and I

lay down on the couch and I hit play.

Like-

Michael: Yeah

... Audree: you know?

Michael: Well, it is like a mini
When Life Hits You, so it's like a-

Audree: Yeah

... Michael: it's like-

Audree: But it's like we, I th- and even
the transformational audios, like, we're

gonna record one today because I need it.

Michael: Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Audree: Like, we make
the things for us to use.

Michael: When

Audree: I saw- We give it to our students
for them to try it out, see if it works.

I have to sneeze again.

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: Thank

Michael: you.

Okay.

Sneeze completed.

Audree: Mischief managed.

Michael: Mm.

Right.

So if we go back to the story about the,
the parent with the, the teenager, let's

use that as an example 'cause that,
a lot of people can relate to that.

Um, or the person in life that's
challenging them or the boss that's

challenging them or whatever,
that it just comes back to-

Audree: Even a health issue

Michael: yeah, it, it's really, um, comes
back to the, the nursery rhyme, "Row, row,

row your boat gently down the stream."

So look at what the flow of life
is and, and, and see where you are

in resistance to what's happening
with your, in your own being.

Mm-hmm.

Look inward with what's happening
with you because that holds the

keys to the situation you're in.

And the, the beauty, I think, of,
of this whole journey and everything

that we're talking about here is
that every little step counts, right?

'Cause we're talking about a journey
towards- Becoming the captain of

our own ship, mastering our own
incarnational biological computer,

which is, um, a journey of self-mastery.

Like, you don't become the
captain of the ship, you know?

They don't, you don't just get
suddenly promoted to be captain.

You have to work through and learn
the systems so you understand, and how

to manage the crew, and you have to
learn all that to become the captain.

Mm-hmm.

And so it's the same thing for you.

You can be in charge of your
life experience and create your

life experience, and be the,
the creator of it when you learn

how to take on that capability.

Audree: Right.

That's what the she said.

We're in a training program.

Michael: Yeah.

Audree: We can't move to sixth, the
sixth phase frequency or the sixth

dimension, where it's just instantaneous
manifestation, without understanding the

impact of our being on creation itself.

Michael: Yeah.

Audree: And we ha- and, and being in
unity consciousness and, and all of that.

So we're in the training
program to learn how to do that.

The other thing that's- It's pretty

Michael: cool, really

... Audree: I know.

The other thing that's
coming up for me is that, um,

is that

people use gratitude,

and not fully understanding
the power of gratitude.

So when you are in resistance,
one of the hacks to move out

of resistance is gratitude.

Like, and real gratitude, not
fake gratitude, real gratitude.

And, uh, I did a conference session on it
a while ago, and I used this video of Dr.

Emoto.

In real time, the water molecule and
how it changes when people are standing

around the water- In one minute

in one minute.

Kids, little kids standing around and,
and being in a, in, in a gratitude prayer.

And, and a gratitude
prayer is very simple.

I mean, it's no, it's not complex.

You could start with thank you.

You know, fake it till
you make it kinda thing.

Michael: I, I kinda like
the Bhagwan's oneness hack.

Audree: See where you're not in gratitude.

Well, that is, that's, that is ... Okay,
so that's awareness on steroids.

Michael: Yeah.

Audree: You know, when you- Uh,

Michael: we, we should repeat
it, 'cause it's a good pro tip.

Yeah.

See ... If you're not feeling gratitude,
like real genuine gratitude that's gonna

Audree: open up your being-

Michael: Like me with this house ... yeah.

See where you're not in gratitude.

Audree: I see where I'm not in gratitude.

You'll start to feel a burning sensation
in your body because that's where

the construct, the, the, the lower
vibrational frequency construct is held.

You feel it in your body.

And then you turn your attention to that
uncomfortable sensation in your body.

Michael: Well, that's a, that's a whole
other topic, which is a lot of people

don't even have body awareness or low body

Audree: awareness.

It, it's okay.

I'm just taking them through it now.

You just stay with the uncomfortable
sensation in your body.

You can drop all the thoughts
and just breathe into it.

And that's where you start to unlock

the very thing that's causing the damage.

There's some pain, a hurt, a wounding
deep inside of your construct

that can unwind from
that deeper awareness.

You don't even have to know what it
is, why it's there, how it got there.

And just keep breathing into it.

It's gonna get even more uncomfortable.

The uncomfortable feeling will
intensify, and that's a good thing.

And take a deep breath in and out.

Just letting it go.

Are you ready for the three minutes?

Mm-hmm.

We'll end here.

Michael: Mm-hmm.

Audree: Yeah.

Michael: We'll begin three minutes
of Itum mantra transmission.

Audree: Mm-hmm.

Michael: Now.

Mark.

It's like Star Trek.

Mark.

Audree: Just letting or allowing the E2
transmission to just dissolve everything.

Michael: Thank you for joining us.

Let's be evolutionary.